Before I go on, I just want to thank everyone around me who have showed support, care and concern in every bit of way, be it minute, small, big or large.
(Edit: Got asked/sounded from some about farewell tokens/gifts, coincidentally from a couple on the same day. Thanks for the thought, appreciate it. Don't need to bother, ok? Seriously. Nice knowing your thoughts. Don't waste the $. If really want to give me something than just a card will do, ok? For memory sake. ^_^)
A pat on the shoulder (note: not a tickle or 'slap' from the back, okie?), a smile as we walk pass each other, a little conversation/joke/gossip that we share, a greeting even as you saw me from afar and even a tag on the tag board!
Simply cos you bothered spending time on me. ^_^ Even for a split second, yes. It showed I have a place in your heart, be it as a friend, buddy, teacher, colleague etc.
I am an emo and sentimental guy so these kind of small things go a long way towards touching me and warming my heart. Thanks soooo much and do remember to keep them coming! ^_*/~
Let's start off with the latter 2. Tolerance and determination. I used to have a scroll with a big "忍" on it, hanging near my bedside, cos its one of the 1st I received as a gift, during my sec school years. It has the small letters "知足常乐、能忍自安" by the side. I love it cos in life not everything goes your way so many a times, you have to adapt/tolerate a.k.a. tahan. If you think negatively, its submission, giving in to situation. But if you look on the other side of the coin, then its a test of one's own character as well as 'solving' problems in a more creative way. In the midst of it, you may stand to gain more than you lose. It had a sorry fate though. Cos of a bad and dark patch in my life, she felt it was inauspicious and threw it away... ...
This 忍耐 and 决心 thingy resurfaced in my mind cos towards the end of last month I caught an episode of the repeat telecast of 《卧薪藏胆》. It triggered my thoughts and led me to searching for more on the main lead, King of Yue kingodm, Gou Jian (勾践). Found another drama on the same story online and having been watching it (abt 23 more episodes to go) on tudou.com.
The gist of the story is: Gou Jian of Yue killed Fu Chai's father during a war, Fu Chai, who succeeded his father as King of Wu, took revenge 3 yrs later after emerging victorious in his expedition against the traditionally weaker Yue.
Gou Jian surrendered and served as a slave under Fu Chai in Wu for 3 yrs before being released. During this period, he suffered all soughts of ill fate and did all soughts of things to 'numb' Fu Chai's feelings in a bid to win his trust. One of the acts involve tasting of his faeces. Yes, as in 吃大便. More of 尝 than 吃 though.
He plotted and masterminded a revenge 20 yrs later (after reforms within his country, preparation etc.) During this period, he self-inflicted hardship of sleeping on bed made of sticks and branches, as well as tasted gall bladder daily, using the bitterness to remind himself the taste of defeat and humiliation as well as reaffirm his desire for revenge- both self and national.
- 卧薪藏胆: "Later, people use it to describe one who endures self-imposed hardships to strengthen one's resolve to realize one's ambition."
Now to the last part on faith and trust. Ehmmm to cut it short (realise my post is getting super long as I type ^_^"), its been sometime since I felt such a high degree of trust and faith shown in me by someone. Its hard to put in words. More of something you can feel than describe. I can really sense the person's faith in entrusting the responsibility to me - its more than intuition, you just know it when you do, besides with the person being such an honourable guy, there can never be a tinge of hypocrispy in his actions.
Based on previous experience, I know that trust once broken, NEVER can and NEVER will be mended. It will never be 100% again. Even if its 99%, that remaining 1% of doubt can mean so much. Therefore, just want to let him know I really appreciate it, will do my best in what's entrusted (even though he's not a superior) and that he has really earned my respect (very much so in the past, even more so after this). This has gotta be one of the few things that brightened up my past 1.5 wks.
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